A few nights ago I found myself laying in my boyfriends bed bawling my eyes out…
Unfortunately, no matter how many times I wiped my tears away, they just kept rolling down my face.
Daniel is such a kind hearted soul. Instead of asking me to stop crying or what the hell was going on. He just laid there with me. Squeezing me tightly, telling me how beautiful I was, and how much he loves me. He would run his fingers through my hair slowly and look me in the eyes, while I just sat there quietly wiping the tears off my face. It had been a while since I had a good crying session.
You see, I’m the type of person that lets all my emotions build up until I can’t take it anymore. I know, I know. It’s not good for me…
Although my transparency on this blog/Instagram is pretty raw-honest-lay it all out on the table; There are parts of my past that I chose not to share.
Unfortunately those parts of my past sometimes are what keeps me from moving forward. Life really is what you make of it. The Universe throws challenges your way; It’s how you respond to it, How you choose to move forward that makes you stand out from everyone else. We all have different ways of handling situations and if you think about it, its just part of being humans.
So what if I have been recently cursed with 7 years of bad luck? Job- Cars-Lost Phone-Money… (shouldn’t have shattered my mirror) Am I going to sit here and make you all feel bad for me? NOPE! I refuse to wallow in my own self pity. Instead, I’m making a list of things in life that I do have that bring me joy:
- I’m healthy. I have a roof over my head.
- I have the most beautiful and energetic children that keep me on my toes.
- I have the best family anyone could ask for! My mom/Sister are my best friends!
- I have the most loving, thoughtful boyfriend that makes me count my lucky stars daily.
- I’m almost done with College! I will soon be able to enter my dream Career.
On a beautiful Tuesday Daniel and I decided to go on a hike to Bells Canyon. The initial part of the hike was Hell! It was steep, and our heart rate was off the charts. After taking a few breaks I wanted to keep going up. He reassured me that we were so close and that it wouldn’t be uphill like the beginning of this hike was.
Daniel was my personal tour guide. He could do this hike with his eyes closed. He knew where each hill, flat areas, rocky areas, shaded areas, were. It was a great push and reassurance I needed to make it through this hike.
So there I was, admiring the beautiful view… Taking it all in. Listening quietly to the nature sounds. This hike was everything I needed after the cry session I had earlier in the week… My soul was shinning again. I was letting everything go. I kept thanking nature along the way for bringing me peace to my soul. As we reached the Waterfall, I took a deep breath and looked at Daniel with a huge smile on my face. Serendipity!
Oh! and If you are wondering how I lost my phone. Just close your eyes and picture the following sentence:
We both went on this magical adventure up a mountain. Upon reaching our destination (waterfall) my phone sacrificed itself to the Nature Gods. Leaving me phone less for a week.
A FULL WEEK! But guess what? this girl survived. It wasn’t the end of the World. I made it work. I wasn’t attached to my phone for a week. It was amazing. Unplugging is one of the best advice I can give you.
What an adventure you guys!
One well-rested Nina